The journey of waiting in anticipation

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Life is full of moments where we are waiting in anticipation for something. Whether we are waiting for an appointment, our heart’s desires to be manifested, or simply in the checkout line at the grocery store. It can often be difficult to wait patiently as we live in a society that values instant gratification over the harvest from a good set of seeds that were planted and came into full bloom. But if we are to develop good character and be truly fruitful when we reach the point or place we are waiting on our attitude and disposition in the waiting room,  is just as important as our attitude at the point our number is finally called or we receive what we’ve been praying, waiting for, and anticipating. If we wait for our circumstances to be ideal to walk in the fruits of the Spirit,  are we truly living by faith or being led by our feelings?


I am a believer that gratitude and a good disposition attract beautiful experiences, energy, and blessings that God desires for our life,  which are vital to our growth. Negativity and entitlement leave us wound up, bent out of shape, and just restless in the process of waiting and  are sent as spiritual attacks  to defeat you in the process of waiting. I believe that these attacks are sent to create despair, desperation, frustration, a sense of hopelessness, and in general attacks to derail you from your purpose and from walking in the full promises of God.

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I get it, you want it now! You don’t want to wait. You’re frustrated, you’re over it, and you just want what you want without having to keep looking at the clock , trying to figure out when it will happen and how it will happen. I’ve been there myself and have some things that I’m like “Alright God, any day now”.  But then the Holy Spirit checks me real quick like “Your life and my plans for it are greater than the time lines you set up for me and what you feel like you need. Continue to trust me and don’t rush ahead of me”.



You see what I am coming to realize as I continue waiting for the manifestation of some things I desire is that God is concerned with my character as he prepares me for my destiny and purpose. My spirit needs to be yielded to however God chooses to move no matter what that may or may not look like because it’s trusting God and not trying to force his hand but allowing everything to flow beautifully as he intended. He never intended for me to be anxious and for my focus to  be on those temporal things but totally dedicated to Him and doing HIS WILL in my life.

So when I feel my emotions going off the rails or I am tempted to be impatient with the process I am comforted by the following scriptures:

Psalm 84:11 NLT

For the Lord God is our sun and shield. He gives us grace and glory. The Lord will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right.

Lamentations 3:25 KJV

The Lord is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him.

Psalm 37:7 KJV

Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for him; fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass.

Hebrews 10:36 KJV

For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise.

Philippians 1:6 KJV

Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath began a good work in you will perform until the day of Jesus Christ.

Proverbs 13:12 KJV

Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but when the desire cometh it is a tree of life.

Romans 8:25 NLT

But if we look forward to something we do not yet have, we must wait patiently and confidently.

Just a few but there are so many more jewels that help me get back on track when I am hanging on to waiting by a thread.

God is never going to forsake or fail us. He’s with us even in the waiting with tears streaming down our faces, frustration pangs in  our hearts, very near to giving up. He’s there. Waiting for us to release and LET GO and allow his beautiful masterpiece to be weaved. Let’s commit our deadlines, our desire to control, and our impatient spirits to our loving Father and find true rest and the beauty of being about his business working willingly and being productive and joyfully full of hope despite the wait.

Be encouraged and don’t give up. The wait may be frustrating but God never disappoints and he always exceeds expectations no matter how long the wait for the PROMISE,  for he already fulfilled the greatest promise through HIS SON. I can’t tell you when it will be over BUT I CAN  guarantee you it will be WORTH IT!


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How spiritual obedience is the key to your “manifest destiny” and higher self


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So lately God has been dealing with me about spiritual obedience and how it basically is the key to  the abundant life that God has promised . Imagine that faith is the gatekeeper to an enhanced relationship with God. Well guess what? To access what lies beyond that gate it takes a yielded obedience to get that key in the lock and the door to open to what God has in store for you next. This is by no means endorsing the idea of a works based faith because honestly there will never be enough that anyone could truly do enough to “earn God”, get ” Christian brownie points”,  or any of those sorts of philosophies or ideals that have been created to paint Christianity as a faith for those that are perfect, or have “arrived” per se. The key to our salvation indeed comes by God’s gift to us through Jesus Christ and redemption of our sins. (Ephesians 2:8)

Rather what I mean is that before God ever breathed life into our forms he envisioned an amazing life for us complete with all the plans we were to carry out and the lives we were supposed to touch. Does this mean we won’t encounter troubles or trials? Far from it my loves. (John 16:33) Our very own Prince of Peace encountered and suffered many trials but gained victory over all of them  in the end. But our posture, focus, countenance and attitude towards those things will be different and we will be the light in a dark world that our Father has commissioned us to be. (Matthew 5:14-16)  And in spite of all that if we remain yielded to the Father ready to do his will and honor HIM in whatever ways that we can, he blesses that.

I believe there is a misconstrued vision of how beautiful obedience is. Obedience isn’t God barking orders at you, with the expectation that you will fulfill. God is quite the gentleman and gives you the free will to say no or choose a different route at any time. However,  I think that each time we yield to the Lord and give up another area of our lives bit by bit, he enables us to walk more into the calling he has over our lives because we are trusting in HIM completely and not in ourselves and truly activating our faith walk. We give up the control we feel we need to craft the life we desire and allow the perfect CREATOR to assist us with the masterpiece that blows our little imaginations out of the water.  When we give over to God the cares, concerns, and beliefs of what we feel our lives should look like he honors that. Because we are believing that the TRUE LIFE we find in Christ is our real life anyway. (Matthew 10:39)

I am learning that obedience and faith go hand in hand and you truly cannot have one without the other. You may not always know what’s up ahead, it may not make sense to you, you may feel FEAR, DOUBT, AND UNCERTAINTY in your heart but never allow that to deter you from doing what God has called you to do . Even if you do turn away from the path of obedience, God is always there to find you and lead you back into his loving kindness and plans for you. But I’ve found in my faith walk, I desire God’s best for my life far more than I desire the best I can create. This is far from being a destination I reached over night and I still daily have to yield my will over to HIS. But each step in obedience leads me closer and closer to God’s presence and his wholeness, which far surpasses anything I can concoct on this Earth to fulfill a void reserved for HIM.

This mere blog and being consistent and open to HIS WILL is the ultimate test of obedience but I am trusting that there is something HE is doing in the PROCESS. I challenge you to yield yourself to HIS WILL, be obedient to the things He shares with you, step out on faith, and jump head first into HIS PLAN for your life.

Moses, Abraham, and Noah showed us profound examples of obedience and faith as REAL people with a charge from God. Imagine the beauty of what God may have in store for you and how many lives can be changed or led to salvation if you open your spirit, heart, and mind to the process of obedience, faith, trust, and the journey to getting to your manifest destiny and higher self.

Endurance: The key to sustained faith and victory



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Endurance is one of those things that is both hard to talk about and even harder to experience but it’s such a vital part of any faith and life journey. Without endurance many of our favorite athletes would just be names without a vision or purpose attached to what they are supposed to do and the lives that they are supposed to touch. Even more so, would we even know their names or their stories if they had just given up when things got rough?

If Lebron gave up when things were tough going for the Heat he would not have been able to assist the Heat in becoming NBA champs in 2012 and 2013 and bring a championship home to his home state in 2016. If Walt Disney had given up on himself and his dreams and allowed what he didn’t see to discourage him and keep him from going we wouldn’t have one of the greatest and most magical theme parks known to man to date. But the greatest champion of them all, my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ would never have been able to defeat death,sin, sickness, hell, and the cross if he had allowed defeat to overtake him and lose sight of the greatest victories that were yet to be won.  Even more so, he would have missed out on an opportunity for a people he never met to experience the greatest love that they would ever know and the greatest testimony of all time that spans generations, nations, and time.


If I can be very transparent, my own level of endurance has truly been under attack these past  couple of weeks. I know that God is able to do any and everything because he has shown himself to be faithful and good in my life many times over. But each time we are growing in faith we are getting a new and more in-depth chance to trust God like we have never trusted him before. And in trusting God we are ABSOLUTELY NOT trusting ourselves in anyway, shape, or form. And to be honest as a recovering control freak that is downright scary sometimes. But God has shown me he will never leave me or forsake me and that if I let go I can fall right into his loving and caring arms and protection. I may not know what’s next BUT I can take comfort in the fact that he does and if I just put one foot right in front of the other and continue trusting HIM he will direct my paths. (Proverbs 3:5-6)

I have been there where I have cried tears, felt a pain so deep in my heart, and have been hanging on to dear life by a mere thread and have just wanted to give up because what I was experiencing FELT EXTREMELY HARD AND UNBEARABLE. But at my very brink, God always imparted an extra burst of strength into my spirit and the wisdom and desire to keep going and start praying and fasting even harder to combat the attacks of the enemy on my mindset and my spirit. I know for sure that 2 Corinthians 12:9 came to life for me in those moments but I cried out for strength because I felt so weak and God’s grace truly became sufficient for me.

God also showed me that the enemy was coming for me because I was so committed to living for him and continuing to trust in HIM and walk by faith. When you’re trusting and believing in God and enduring through various circumstances it tries your faith but it also can be the opportunity for you to know what or who your faith is in. The enemy would desire to weaken your resolve, steal your joy, put a damper on your faith, and overall keep you from fulfilling your God given purpose and touching the lives God intended for you to touch. But it’s so important to continue enduring, pressing forward, and taking away quitting as even an option. The only option is to TRUST GOD and push FORWARD. You have to get to the point where you laugh at failure and defeat and resolve that no matter what you are going to push through despite what it might look, feel, or seem like and push forward.


I am so encouraged by these two scriptures:

1 Corinthian 9:24 ESV

Do you not know that in a race all the runners run but only one receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it.


2 Timothy 4:7 KJV

I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith.

Surround yourself with positive community, friends, family and loved ones who are not going to allow you to give up on yourself or God, don’t give into those negative feelings or thoughts and cast them down immediately (2 Corinthians 10:5), worship God like your life depends on it(trust me, it does and he’s so deserving and worthy) and just hang onto your faith. Your faith is only going to grow when it’s been activated or stretched, and it can’t be based off circumstances or situations but rooted in the knowledge of and experience with the God you serve. (Ephesians 3:16-20)


I pray that you stay encouraged, that you don’t give up, that you endure and press forward knowing that you are not alone, that your life has purpose and this walk is so worth it, even when you can’t see or when you can’t quite find your way out,  that you be assured with the reassurance that you are victorious through Christ and that both you and your faith will be sustained and God will see you through, cover you, protect you, guide you and provide for you. Be encouraged and hold tight to God’s promises! I am standing in agreement with you! You will be victorious and become even better than before!




Growing from Faith to Faith

I can honestly say that growing from faith to faith has been one of the most amazing experiences that I’ve had since #adulting. And believe me when I say that I haven’t arrived or even made it a little bit. But it’s also an intentional daily choice to deny my lower self and acknowledge the thoughts of God and my higher self. It’s a choice to believe that all things truly work out for the best for those who believe in God (paraphrasing Romans 8:28)

And that is the hard part. Because it requires nurturing of your soul. Making choices that divert from the beaten path and choosing the road less traveled. The uncertainty. The moments of anxiety and denying the inner desire to control ALL of your outcomes. But I often hear the saying when you want to change you have to leave some things behind that don’t match or won’t fit your new destiny. Essentially new levels in anything require that YOU LEVEL UP and become a newer, more refined version of your former self. You see each of us receives a measure of faith from God (Romans 12:3-8) But we have to constantly be “leveling up” and feeding our spirit as well as acting as co-curator with God to get to that next level and throwing aside anything that keeps you from truly believing and seeking God.


And with any new voyage you are sure to uncover unchartered lands.  But that means God is going to birth a new boldness, grace, and level of faith as you place your hand in His, and trust that he is greater than whatever you face. One thing I I’ve also noticed is the spiritual warfare and shift will be indescribable. But this will require you to put extra effort to be sensitive to guarding your heart, exercising your prayer life like never before, fasting, and growing from the milk of the word to the meat of the word and maturing in your faith to truly be effective and carry out the purpose that God put you on this Earth for. (Hebrews 5:12 and 1 Peter 2:2) Most of all, it requires a level of trust that you never knew you had to ignore what you see and remain focused on things that are unseen. The very foundation upon which is faith is built off after all.

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As a familiar saying goes ” Faith doesn’t make sense, and sense doesn’t make faith”

So keep pushing, believing, and relying on God for your daily bread all the way up to your wildest dreams. He far surpasses expectations and you are growing every day, so keep putting in good seeds and allowing God to mature your spiritual fruit and be prepared for an amazing manifestation and even more intimate relationship with God!