The journey of waiting in anticipation

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Life is full of moments where we are waiting in anticipation for something. Whether we are waiting for an appointment, our heart’s desires to be manifested, or simply in the checkout line at the grocery store. It can often be difficult to wait patiently as we live in a society that values instant gratification over the harvest from a good set of seeds that were planted and came into full bloom. But if we are to develop good character and be truly fruitful when we reach the point or place we are waiting on our attitude and disposition in the waiting room,  is just as important as our attitude at the point our number is finally called or we receive what we’ve been praying, waiting for, and anticipating. If we wait for our circumstances to be ideal to walk in the fruits of the Spirit,  are we truly living by faith or being led by our feelings?


I am a believer that gratitude and a good disposition attract beautiful experiences, energy, and blessings that God desires for our life,  which are vital to our growth. Negativity and entitlement leave us wound up, bent out of shape, and just restless in the process of waiting and  are sent as spiritual attacks  to defeat you in the process of waiting. I believe that these attacks are sent to create despair, desperation, frustration, a sense of hopelessness, and in general attacks to derail you from your purpose and from walking in the full promises of God.

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I get it, you want it now! You don’t want to wait. You’re frustrated, you’re over it, and you just want what you want without having to keep looking at the clock , trying to figure out when it will happen and how it will happen. I’ve been there myself and have some things that I’m like “Alright God, any day now”.  But then the Holy Spirit checks me real quick like “Your life and my plans for it are greater than the time lines you set up for me and what you feel like you need. Continue to trust me and don’t rush ahead of me”.



You see what I am coming to realize as I continue waiting for the manifestation of some things I desire is that God is concerned with my character as he prepares me for my destiny and purpose. My spirit needs to be yielded to however God chooses to move no matter what that may or may not look like because it’s trusting God and not trying to force his hand but allowing everything to flow beautifully as he intended. He never intended for me to be anxious and for my focus to  be on those temporal things but totally dedicated to Him and doing HIS WILL in my life.

So when I feel my emotions going off the rails or I am tempted to be impatient with the process I am comforted by the following scriptures:

Psalm 84:11 NLT

For the Lord God is our sun and shield. He gives us grace and glory. The Lord will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right.

Lamentations 3:25 KJV

The Lord is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him.

Psalm 37:7 KJV

Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for him; fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass.

Hebrews 10:36 KJV

For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise.

Philippians 1:6 KJV

Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath began a good work in you will perform until the day of Jesus Christ.

Proverbs 13:12 KJV

Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but when the desire cometh it is a tree of life.

Romans 8:25 NLT

But if we look forward to something we do not yet have, we must wait patiently and confidently.

Just a few but there are so many more jewels that help me get back on track when I am hanging on to waiting by a thread.

God is never going to forsake or fail us. He’s with us even in the waiting with tears streaming down our faces, frustration pangs in  our hearts, very near to giving up. He’s there. Waiting for us to release and LET GO and allow his beautiful masterpiece to be weaved. Let’s commit our deadlines, our desire to control, and our impatient spirits to our loving Father and find true rest and the beauty of being about his business working willingly and being productive and joyfully full of hope despite the wait.

Be encouraged and don’t give up. The wait may be frustrating but God never disappoints and he always exceeds expectations no matter how long the wait for the PROMISE,  for he already fulfilled the greatest promise through HIS SON. I can’t tell you when it will be over BUT I CAN  guarantee you it will be WORTH IT!


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Endurance: The key to sustained faith and victory



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Endurance is one of those things that is both hard to talk about and even harder to experience but it’s such a vital part of any faith and life journey. Without endurance many of our favorite athletes would just be names without a vision or purpose attached to what they are supposed to do and the lives that they are supposed to touch. Even more so, would we even know their names or their stories if they had just given up when things got rough?

If Lebron gave up when things were tough going for the Heat he would not have been able to assist the Heat in becoming NBA champs in 2012 and 2013 and bring a championship home to his home state in 2016. If Walt Disney had given up on himself and his dreams and allowed what he didn’t see to discourage him and keep him from going we wouldn’t have one of the greatest and most magical theme parks known to man to date. But the greatest champion of them all, my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ would never have been able to defeat death,sin, sickness, hell, and the cross if he had allowed defeat to overtake him and lose sight of the greatest victories that were yet to be won.  Even more so, he would have missed out on an opportunity for a people he never met to experience the greatest love that they would ever know and the greatest testimony of all time that spans generations, nations, and time.


If I can be very transparent, my own level of endurance has truly been under attack these past  couple of weeks. I know that God is able to do any and everything because he has shown himself to be faithful and good in my life many times over. But each time we are growing in faith we are getting a new and more in-depth chance to trust God like we have never trusted him before. And in trusting God we are ABSOLUTELY NOT trusting ourselves in anyway, shape, or form. And to be honest as a recovering control freak that is downright scary sometimes. But God has shown me he will never leave me or forsake me and that if I let go I can fall right into his loving and caring arms and protection. I may not know what’s next BUT I can take comfort in the fact that he does and if I just put one foot right in front of the other and continue trusting HIM he will direct my paths. (Proverbs 3:5-6)

I have been there where I have cried tears, felt a pain so deep in my heart, and have been hanging on to dear life by a mere thread and have just wanted to give up because what I was experiencing FELT EXTREMELY HARD AND UNBEARABLE. But at my very brink, God always imparted an extra burst of strength into my spirit and the wisdom and desire to keep going and start praying and fasting even harder to combat the attacks of the enemy on my mindset and my spirit. I know for sure that 2 Corinthians 12:9 came to life for me in those moments but I cried out for strength because I felt so weak and God’s grace truly became sufficient for me.

God also showed me that the enemy was coming for me because I was so committed to living for him and continuing to trust in HIM and walk by faith. When you’re trusting and believing in God and enduring through various circumstances it tries your faith but it also can be the opportunity for you to know what or who your faith is in. The enemy would desire to weaken your resolve, steal your joy, put a damper on your faith, and overall keep you from fulfilling your God given purpose and touching the lives God intended for you to touch. But it’s so important to continue enduring, pressing forward, and taking away quitting as even an option. The only option is to TRUST GOD and push FORWARD. You have to get to the point where you laugh at failure and defeat and resolve that no matter what you are going to push through despite what it might look, feel, or seem like and push forward.


I am so encouraged by these two scriptures:

1 Corinthian 9:24 ESV

Do you not know that in a race all the runners run but only one receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it.


2 Timothy 4:7 KJV

I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith.

Surround yourself with positive community, friends, family and loved ones who are not going to allow you to give up on yourself or God, don’t give into those negative feelings or thoughts and cast them down immediately (2 Corinthians 10:5), worship God like your life depends on it(trust me, it does and he’s so deserving and worthy) and just hang onto your faith. Your faith is only going to grow when it’s been activated or stretched, and it can’t be based off circumstances or situations but rooted in the knowledge of and experience with the God you serve. (Ephesians 3:16-20)


I pray that you stay encouraged, that you don’t give up, that you endure and press forward knowing that you are not alone, that your life has purpose and this walk is so worth it, even when you can’t see or when you can’t quite find your way out,  that you be assured with the reassurance that you are victorious through Christ and that both you and your faith will be sustained and God will see you through, cover you, protect you, guide you and provide for you. Be encouraged and hold tight to God’s promises! I am standing in agreement with you! You will be victorious and become even better than before!




Growing from Faith to Faith

I can honestly say that growing from faith to faith has been one of the most amazing experiences that I’ve had since #adulting. And believe me when I say that I haven’t arrived or even made it a little bit. But it’s also an intentional daily choice to deny my lower self and acknowledge the thoughts of God and my higher self. It’s a choice to believe that all things truly work out for the best for those who believe in God (paraphrasing Romans 8:28)

And that is the hard part. Because it requires nurturing of your soul. Making choices that divert from the beaten path and choosing the road less traveled. The uncertainty. The moments of anxiety and denying the inner desire to control ALL of your outcomes. But I often hear the saying when you want to change you have to leave some things behind that don’t match or won’t fit your new destiny. Essentially new levels in anything require that YOU LEVEL UP and become a newer, more refined version of your former self. You see each of us receives a measure of faith from God (Romans 12:3-8) But we have to constantly be “leveling up” and feeding our spirit as well as acting as co-curator with God to get to that next level and throwing aside anything that keeps you from truly believing and seeking God.


And with any new voyage you are sure to uncover unchartered lands.  But that means God is going to birth a new boldness, grace, and level of faith as you place your hand in His, and trust that he is greater than whatever you face. One thing I I’ve also noticed is the spiritual warfare and shift will be indescribable. But this will require you to put extra effort to be sensitive to guarding your heart, exercising your prayer life like never before, fasting, and growing from the milk of the word to the meat of the word and maturing in your faith to truly be effective and carry out the purpose that God put you on this Earth for. (Hebrews 5:12 and 1 Peter 2:2) Most of all, it requires a level of trust that you never knew you had to ignore what you see and remain focused on things that are unseen. The very foundation upon which is faith is built off after all.

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As a familiar saying goes ” Faith doesn’t make sense, and sense doesn’t make faith”

So keep pushing, believing, and relying on God for your daily bread all the way up to your wildest dreams. He far surpasses expectations and you are growing every day, so keep putting in good seeds and allowing God to mature your spiritual fruit and be prepared for an amazing manifestation and even more intimate relationship with God!


Walking by Faith NOT Fear


The sinking pit in your stomach. The feeling that at any given moment it all could go wrong. The overanalyzing/overthinking, the calculation, recalculation and plans A-Z if 1, 2, or 3 were to happen. These are all common things that I must admit at various times I’ve experienced and struggled with. Stating with my mouth that I am going to believe but doing everything in the books to work against myself and my beliefs and what I was trusting God for.

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A constant spiritual and emotional battle fighting against feelings of inadequacy, doubt, hopelessness, insecurities, and in general paralysis that keeps you from moving forward into the best version of yourself and reaching those goals you’ve been longing to reach.


BUT…… What if we were to replace all those negative feelings with positive feelings, affirmation, and faith? What if you took a deep inventory and began to understand what prevents you from tapping into your higher calling and authority in God? What if instead of anticipating all the ways that you believed that you would fail you just walked into the victory of being confident, persistent, tenacious and focused? Don’t you realize there are people connected to your goals, vision, purpose, and life? I often sit and wonder for all those times I allowed fear to keep me from pursuing an opportunity or acting in alignment with my best self what calling from God did I miss? What opportunity to be a blessing or receive a blessing did I allow fear to steal from me? How could I have grown had I just stretched myself a little further outside of my comfort zone? Am I really going to let uncertainty rob me of the chance to go higher and reach new depths?

What I’ve learned and what God has been showing me over the past couple of months is faith has to BE ACTIVATED. It’s great to SAY you believe but that belief becomes real when you get the opportunity to doubt, worry, or just act in unbelief and you choose to believe that as Romans 8:28 tells us God works everything out for the good of those who love him and are called according to his purpose. NOTHING IS WASTED. No time period, experience, event, interaction is wasted. It’s all a part of your unique blueprint for the story that is being divinely created for the manifestation of your destiny and HIS glory.


You see fear is a natural human response but it shouldn’t stop you from pursuing the calling of God on your life nor keep you from enjoying life. 2 Timothy 1:7 tells us that God has not given us a spirit of power, love, and a sound mind. Thus, divinely to reach your highest potential you need to activate your power, walk and allow all your acts to radiate love and keep a clarity of mind about you despite what your feelings may be telling you or your eyes may be seeing. Faith isn’t logical, but neither are some of your biggest dreams and goals. Every day you are going to come to a cross roads, giving into your fears and staying stagnant or letting go and applying faith and expecting the best outcomes and doing the work internally, personally, professionally, romantically,  whatever capacity desired by working with God to reach them.

The beautiful thing that I have observed about children is that they know no fear. If they are fearful, it is only because it has been learned or told to them. Quick story: I was about 11 years old and was still playing with Barbies. Nickelodeon had this drawing for a Barbie and a Barbie tour bus. I entered into the contest expecting to win. I prayed about it (my parents always instilled the importance of a prayer life in me) and forgot about it. About a month later, what showed up on my door step but a Barbie and a Barbie tour bus. I didn’t obsess over it, I didn’t worry myself into a frenzy, I didn’t doubt, I just did the work, planted my seed of faith and believed the rest would work itself out on its own. I think thats definitely a vital lesson that can be emulated from children.

So I challenge you and myself today to continuously and unwaveringly  walk by FAITH, set your fears aside, do the work, and watch God work.

How do you do that? Well I am glad you asked.

  1. Commune with God about His will for your life.
  2. Meditate on the purpose and will and be open and obedient to how God may cause it to come to pass in your life. There is no formula, just a process of being obedient, faithful, faith filled, and a willing vessel.
  3. Guard your heart from anything that may cause distractions, unbelief, doubt or triggers that will cause you to be deterred from the work God is trying to do in you and through you.
  4. Be vigilant about protecting your faith because you are going to have opportunities for people, places, events, circumstances etc to poke holes in it or fill you with doubt.
  5. Be expectant for something AMAZING to happen that more than surpasses your expectations and blows your mind. Faith has a way of being chock full of opportunity for miracles and for God to show up, show out, and show his people and their doubters he is SUPER FAITHFUL and sovereign.
  6. Last but not least show gratitude for where you are going and respect your journey. Each step you make to walk by faith and every day that you wake up putting one foot in front of the other is a step in the right direction.

Never give up, never stop believing, don’t compare your journey to anyone else’s and never forget you are fearfully fashioned and treasured.



What does it mean to be fearfully and wonderfully made?


Perfection seems to be the very standard by which many of us in today’s age measure everything we do. From perfect careers, to significant others, perfect vacations, perfect Instagram and Facebook posts complete with pictures that have been filtered and formatted to set us in just the right image. Hair, nails, outfits, partners, everything has to be just so. No one can ever think or perceive that what we do, say or think isn’t straight out of a picture book or that everything in our life isn’t all that it we post or as it appears.

BUT what if I told you that you were already PERFECT without feeling any added pressure to make yourself that way and that you could walk day to day and JUST RELAX? I don’t know about you but I would be souped for that level of good news. GUESS WHAT? You already are! How awesome is that?!?! You see your perfection is not through anything that you have done but EVERYTHING that has been done before the formation of the Earth FOR YOU and IN YOU.  I didn’t collaborate with God by happenstance to name this blog fearfully fashioned, I truly believe because I am a child of the MOST HIGH and HIS word speaks to such I don’t have any more good sense and faith but to believe EXACTLY THAT.

Let’s take a further look at this:

Psalms 139:14-18 (NIV)

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast are the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand- when I awake I am still with you.

Gosh! How beautiful is that? To have the absolute confidence that before your parents and anyone else knew you God did and that all your quirks, beautiful parts, everything he designed, he designed specifically with you in mind? He knew your days before they unfolded and all his thoughts are thoughts of lovingkindness and good thoughts towards you? TALK ABOUT MIND BLOWN!

If you need a little more proof head over to Jeremiah 1:5 and Jeremiah 29:11. LIFE CHANGERS.

If I can be super transparent for a second, this BLOG itself is waaaayyyyy out of my element. While, I am a huge people person when I do things I like to be in the background and allow other people to be the spokesperson or mouthpiece and I like to see other people in action and just be the contributor and catalyst to that action. I struggled with the Holy Spirit for A LONNNNGGGG time about this blog. I was like Lord no one really cares what I have to say, no one will read it, and many other thoughts that pointed to doubt and unbelief. Then I got heavily convicted and God explained to me anything he asks me to do he will give me the grace and capacity to do so and just GET STARTED. And he also affirmed to me that I need to show and share with people that no one is perfect outside of the WILL and covering of God. Then he sweetly reminded me that I love to encourage people, I love sharing my thoughts, heart’s desires and HIS WORD and what better way to do it than through this avenue?

So I say all that to say this I am in no way PERFECT and will not be until the day I am perfected in HEAVEN. But I do love God, I am on a life journey to walk out my soul salvation, and whether you are a Christian or not I pray that you come here and this blog blesses your soul and makes this journey here a little bit easier for you.

No matter shape, size, color, hair texture  etc. I truly believe and stand in faith with you that God has something super special planned for your life and a beautiful purpose for you to carry out on this Earth. He loves you and so do I. And guess what? He made you fearfully and wonderfully without spot or blemish. So that blog you’ve been waiting to write? Write it! That business you’ve been waiting to start? Start it! Whatever has been purposed in your heart to do, DO IT! Don’t ever allow fear, doubt, unbelief, insecurities or whatever to hold you back. You were fearfully and wonderfully made and you have everything you need right inside of you to carry out the plan God has for you. Walk in that authority and do it fearlessly knowing God’s spirit is with you and will never leave or forsake you. There are no perfect people, just a perfect God working tirelessly on our behalf and in our lives. And that is what it TRULY means to be fearfully and wonderfully made.

Never give up, never stop believing, don’t compare your journey to anyone else’s and never forget you are fearfully fashioned and treasured.